After I've abandoned my blog for so long, it's time for me to blog again. Since it's almost New Year, I think this is a good time to reflect and have a new resolution list.

Last year's list:
1. Earn more money.
2. Find a nice cozy place to move into.
3. Be more healthy!
4. Try to spend my time with mom and dad more often.
5. Stay awesome. ;)

I think I've achieved all of it for 2013. Not bad huh? Now, I shall have more expectation for myself for 2014.

Resolution List
1. Get at least one First Class Honour every semester.
2. Exercise more. Lose at least 10kg.
3. Cook more at home.
4. Eat healthier stuff. (less fast and junk food)
5. Salad for dinner. Every weekdays. (weekends are for cheats)
6. Work to earn and save money.
7. Go for yoga/pilate class.
8. Brush up photography skills.
9. Learn digital painting.
10. Find a suitable art style for myself.
11. Go on more trips.
12. Finish up books I've bought.
13. Change wardrobe style.
14. Keep hair at around waist length.
15. Blog more.

Wishlist
1. iPhone 5s
2. Bigger computer monitor.
3. A nicer place to stay.
4. Cherry Blossom trip on Birthday.
5. A car.

"To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance." -Oscar Wilde.

put a smile on. 11:59 PM

I feel so tired. Mentally. The stress is too much for me to bear anymore. No one understands and no one is here for me. This is probably the most fragile time for my mentality hence the extra sensitivity. I want help. I NEED HELP but I don't know who and where to find anymore. I feel so tired that I want to give up but I'm still hanging on an extremely thin thread trying to go through all this. I don't know how long I can last anymore.

put a smile on. 8:56 PM

It ended. Sooner than I expected. It still hurts although I had seen it coming long long time ago. 20 minutes. That's all the time I will give myself to grief the loss of it; cry as much as I want to because no matter how strong I am, I'm still a girl after all. I'd still feel the pain for some selfish reasons. After that, I'm going to let it go. Wake up as good as new, dress up, put on make up not for anyone else but me. Those are not the "masks" like how others believe to conceal my sadness. It's just another way to make myself feel good and happier.

Breaking up is definitely not the end of my world. Come to look at it, it is just in time to close the first chapter of my 2013 book. It's not the end of the world, my life nor any part of me. In fact, it's another new beginning for me and it gave me a new resolution! I shall lose more weight before my birthday and score a hotter, and better guy! I'm strong enough to grief for that short while and come back as a much better person. :)

"I'm the type of girl that puts on her better smile, her better outfit, and better attitude and shows him what he left behind." -unknown.

put a smile on. 9:10 PM

Another year over and I have not achieved much. Yet. Things weren't all rainbows and butterflies but I certainly enjoyed 2012. I will continue enjoy my life doing the things that I don't really like. Like college. I learned to appreciate my family more and of course friends too. To those who stood by me, you will certainly not regret it. To those who left, oh well. Your lost. Now I shall list down my late by a month's New Year Resolution!

1. Earn more money.
2. Find a nice cozy place to move into.
3. Be more healthy!
4. Try to spend more time outside.
5. Stay awesome. ;)

"No, this is not the beginning of a new chapter in my life; this is the beginning of a new book! That first book is already closed, ended and tossed into the seas; this new book is newly opened, has just begun! Look, it is the first page! And it is a beautiful one!"
-C. JoyBell C.

put a smile on. 12:15 AM

Things are slowly getting more and more stressful. I'm slowly caving in but still trying to stay strong. Conserve energy. Must. Conserve. I mustn't reach the breaking point that fast. I just can't, yet. Have to keep my eyes, mind and heart open at this point for new ideas and to improve.

put a smile on. 7:24 PM

New semester, new resolution, new lecturers, new opinions, new ideas, whole new lot of dramas. Going through all of it with friends that I could confide in while having fun and strengthened bonds along the way. They are like my family when I'm away from home.

put a smile on. 6:49 PM

The outcome was a little disappointing but still okay nonetheless. I shall work harder to do better next semester. I hope I can do it. I believe I can.

"Believe in yourself, and the rest will fall into place. Have faith in your own abilities, work hard and there is nothing you cannot accomplish" -Brad Henry.

put a smile on. 6:05 PM